Waiting

Yesterday we called about getting an appointment with the oncologist to discuss the chemotherapy and apparently the procedure is that the doctors, when they are free, come into the office and triage the referrals - i.e. the more serious go to the top of the pile. You will understand that this creates a distinct sense of ambivalence - do I really want to go to the top of the pile?

So when will the chemo begin? I assumed there were lists and that when a space opens up my name will eventually be put on the list. Not so, my name gets on the list within one to two weeks after seeing the oncologist.

Something that to me seems infinitely simple such as making appointments, is in fact, far more multi layered.

Learning to wait without pulling out the telephone cord or simply screaming at the next person who calls "why are you not the oncologist" is the challenge for today!

At some point I will likely rampage but in the mean time we have had some really significant times with friends.